The last 6 months have been a long haul and a roller coaster ride like I have never before been on. I never did like roller coasters and this one is a doozie. I guess how this started is that DH is going through Mid Life Crisis and Life Transition Crisis. He's had highs and lows, he's had a emotional affair - which may or may not be continuing via email and text, and is misuse of alcohol is completely out of control. Good news is some days, or during a short period of some days, he seems almost normal.
The good news for me is that while this has all been devastating and confusing, especially at first, it has driven me to look at my codependency issues. It has forced me to become independent and I am beginning to feel like the person I was before that fateful day I said "I do"
I have done some sewing now and then but I have been so immersed in trying to become emotionally healthy again it has taken a back seat to my own recovery.
Last month I started yet another Blog and am basing it on my reading of The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie. I am sharing what I learn and giving my own feelings on what the topics mean to me today. I hope anyone who is interested will take a look at http://codependentme.blogspot.com/
I am using a lot of her books. Presently I am also using the Workbook that goes with Co-dependent No More. I am also doing daily readings in the book Simple Abundance by Sarah Ban Breathnach and learning from the book The Courage to Be Yourself: A Woman's Guide to Emotional Strength and Self Esteem by Sue Patton Thoele.
I bought myself a Kindle for my birthday and I absolutely love it. I do find it harder on the eyes at my age than print books, more like a computer screen, but it could just be that I'm reading so much each day that my eyes would get tired anyway. I highly recommend Kindle though.
Thanks for reading.
5 comments:
Shirley, it's so good to hear from you! I have been thinking about you and wondering how you were doing. I guess since you are well on the road to independence means you are doing great!! I am sure there are days that aren't easy, but my prayers are that they will be few and far between. I love my Kindle too. I have to enlarge the print on some of the books till it is almost ridiculous, but I figure at least I can make it larger! :)
Hi Shirley, although I know you've been around on Facebook, I still wondered how you are doing. Sounds like you've had a tough few months, but are your way to independence. I'm not so sure how I would handle your challenges after those many years of marriage. I admire your strength and courage in writing about such a personal journey. I hope the coming months are better for you. Also, I don't have a Kindle, but I love my Sony ebook reader. It is such an easy way to read books without having to go to the library. I'm having trouble posting comments or comments that don't show me as "anonymous", so this comment is from Quiltluver Karen
I have often thought about you over the past few months and was delighted to see you blog again.
sounds like life has been tough for you but you are managing to get through.
Keep strong and positive Shirley.
Hugs
Maria
I've been wondering how things have been going for you. It's lovely to get an unpdate.
It sounds like the last 6 months have been hard but have supported you to explore some areas in life where you can make changes , where you can be in control, and where you have chance to create happiness.
Make sure you stay focussed on you,and treat yourself in ways that are respectful and positive.
Glad to see you again.
Hi Shirley
I've missed your blog, and I'm glad to hear that you're doing better. Take care of yourself and post when you can.
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